It’s been twenty-one years.
Twenty-one years since I looked at the x-rays, white as a blizzard.
…beep, beep, beep, beep…
Whiteout.
Washed in the blood of the Lamb.
Looking at blood in all the wrong places.
Twenty-one years and the image of my mother, sitting in the corner of the room.
Resigned, not resolute.
…beep, beep, beep…
Limbo.
Deal another card.
…beep, beep…
The Decision.
Stop it all, all but the necessary (and what was necessary at that point anyway?).
Deal another card.
It’s okay, Dad, you can go now. It’s okay.
Death is never okay.
Deal another card.
…beep…
Is he here?
Is He here?
Is He in heaven?
Is he in heaven?
Do you want one more card?
Hit me.
Nothing is permanent.
Time is precious.
Love means everything.
Blessed be the tie that binds, our hearts in Christian love.
When we asunder part, it gives us inward pain
But we shall still be joined in heart, and hope to meet again.
Hit me.
…………..beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep…………………..
The house always wins.
Wow Wow Wow
You have talent.
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And you are biased. Thank you, sweetie.
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This is beautiful, yet tragic. So perfectly descriptive of the memory. I have memories of both parents in hospital rooms with no conversation, only machines and last nods towards my expression of love, acknowledging my love, telling me they knew. God is purposeful and Sovereign, my solace.
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Thanks for reading, Lisa.
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A stunning poem! Thank you so much.
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Thank you for reading.
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