We’re Losing It


As some of my friends continue to point out to me, I am very excited about an event that is coming up this weekend in Rome, Georgia. A couple hundred of us, if we’re lucky, will gather at the Rome History Museum downtown and eat, imbibe, swap stories, dance, and try to recapture those feelings that we had when we were sixteen, seventeen, eighteen years old. We’ll tell tales. We’ll mourn the loss of classmates. We’ll gaze excitedly into the eyes of those we still hold dear after three or even four decades, picking up on old conversations like we had stopped them to run to the store on an errand and now are back to finish them.

The past few weeks have been fun for us. We have collectively posted pictures, reminisced, found old class rings, learned of the passing of friends, located friends long-since moved on, and shared all of this in a way only the modern Internet allows. One of us (and you shall remain nameless here!) has posted song after song from the seventies, video clips of our past, snippets of song and flashing lights and wild hair and mouth guitars. Funny, that. Every time I watch a video or hear a song, my brain recalls a memory. Mostly good ones, mostly fun ones, but sometimes sad, sometimes “what if” memories that make me wonder what my life, what your life would have been like if I’d only…if you’d…if we’d…

I hear the song, and I smell wet grass on the football field in the fall. I see my old high school with its space station-grey round buildings, looking like something from Mars in the middle of a field a few miles outside my hometown. I smell perfume. I feel chalk dust on my hands. I feel the heft of textbooks. I feel the cold mouthpiece of a silver trumpet on my lips, so cold that it sticks. I feel the smooth felt of a tennis ball as I toss it into the air, my old Jack Kramer wooden racket ready to launch it over the net. I remember teachers who were so young then, much younger than I am now, who were the symbols of authority, the ones who would impart wisdom to us, if we would let them. The wisdom to go far beyond Shannon, Georgia, to see the world. 

Some of us ride motorcycles now. Some of us hike, ski, play guitars, sing, write. Some of us are teachers. Some of us are doctors. Some are college professors. Some of us have had massive setbacks, physical, emotional, financial. Some of us are sad, depressed, bitter, and barely find the strength to make it to the next day. Some of us have traveled the world. Some us have hands that touch and comfort and heal. Some of us play the piano and sing. Some of us paint pictures of color and birds and flowers and children and bring to the fore the brightness that is life in their own mind, so that we may all share it. 

Some of us are here and there, scattered like so many leaves on a chilly fall day in the mill village right down the road from the old school houses we remember so well and so fondly. We laugh, love, raise children, bounce grandchildren on our knee and live. 

Some of us are gone. We mourn them with an intensity we don’t even understand. They have taken a piece of us with them. 

I went to a show last night at the local University, just five minutes from my apartment.

An Evening With Hal Linden” was a fun, fast, toe-tapping, joke-telling hour and a half that brought back memories of old Broadway shows, television sit coms, beautiful songs, and a time when America was what we remember it as, a time when we were mill village kids, Model High School kids. Mr. Linden, he of Barney Miller fame but oh so much more, is now eighty-two years old. Hard to tell that last night, as he danced, played the clarinet, spun off one liners and crooned songs from Broadway shows that brought him fame, if only fleeting. He exited the stage to wipe makeup from his face after one number, a revisiting of one of his Broadway triumphs, and came back to huge applause from the audience. 

“I would have come back anyway,” he quipped, obviously enjoying the accolades. “You know why? Because I just love being up here. I just love it.”

He then said something that inspired me to write this post. I paraphrase a bit if that’s okay with you, dear readers.

“What is it about nostalgia? What is it that makes us keep going back, remembering, enjoying these old songs and memories from the past?”

“You know what it is? It’s the loss of innocence.”

We were all innocent back then, weren’t we?

We were kids, just kids, full of laughter and smiles and learning and guts and glory. We wooed our girlfriends and played our songs and danced and caught touchdown passes and wrote papers and pushed the limits to see just how far we could go. 

I think that’s what we are always looking for. I think that finding that class ring in the bottom of a drawer, seeing a color picture of yourself up on that stage receiving a high school diploma, thinking about a favorite teacher you’ll see at a reunion, or reliving that game-winning touchdown all take us back to one thing.

Once upon a time, we were pure. We were carefree. We were not yet aware of how cruel the world can be. 

We were innocents.

I truly hope that my friends and I can recapture, just for a few hours, some of that innocence that we all shared.

I hope we can feel the ties that still bind, the bonds that cannot be broken by age, time, distance or even death. 


7 thoughts on “We’re Losing It

  1. Beautifully written. The very first thing that popped into my mind is a Broadway number from “The Fantastiks” and sung by the late Jerry Orbach– “Try To Remember.” I think you’re in for a wonderful time, and no tarpon fishing! Follow….follow…


  2. Greg,

    With tears in my eyes, I wholeheartedly agree, as i also look forward to reconnecting with the dearest friends i have ever known.

    This is beautiful. It brings back such beautiful memories for me.

    Thanks for the memories, my dear friend.



  3. Have a wonderful time at your reunion! I did, however, have a very different high school experience. It was not awful but I felt that I did not belong there and would come to see college as a much more accepting place for the young woman that I was. By the end of high school, I felt somewhat jaded.

    I think that having a health crisis has compelled me to re-examine my life. And many people from my past has reached out to me. I have gained a great deal by reconnecting with my high school friends during the past year. I am cheered by the fact that in many ways, there is less to divide us now. There is maturity and acceptance. I look forward to my reunion next summer, which will be my 30th. And I hope there is dancing. There wasn’t any at our 20th reunion and that was the last official reunion. I am slightly envious as you all know how to celebrate!


  4. H .G. Wells…The Time Machine. Don’t have one, but that music, unlike our physical youth, comes forward with us in time even as we go back to meet the past. Anyway, that’s part what this post spoke to me. Thanks, Greg.


  5. These reunions are not a tradition in France. If they were, I think I would not go to the highschool one, as I met my Big Love, my One and Only, and my Regrets-for-ever, and would in no case like to meet him again, especially now.
    But I understand your point about such reunions and appreciate the poetry with which you wrote about teenage period. Which, if my memory doesn’t fool me, was not that innocent as far as I am concerned… Ah, the old good times! 😀


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